September 2010
All these years..
All these years in AYPAL….4th or 5th i think i forgot, but damn i feel old. I feel like an adult now. I go to YLOs and all these youngins there from middle school to high school. Its great to see younger people get involved and really see the light shine in them. But for now its hard to socialize with them because of the age difference, but i hope to come around more and mingle into the...
Choosing your crowd
I noticed lately that I rather hang out with my STP/AYPAL folks a lot more than my boys. My boys we been thru it all thick and thin. But its getting harder to hang out with them. Everything they do just irritates me because im the organizer, but they the hustlas. They use the terms bitch gay and all that. Its hard to be around people like that now and i notice myself straying away a little bit. No...
Food For Thought
I dont know how many of you out there do this but i know i do it and i ask why.
Why is it that we can feel so much safer in WHite neighborhood areas and go to restaurants in White areas and enjoy ourselves to death, but its hard for some of us to walk down the street to the local diner or restaurant without fear.
I know its hood and ghetto and dangerous, but why is can’t we feel safe in...
hmmm
I noticed that when my team loses because of people who fuck up and fails while i do good. I make them pay the price by watching how they fucked up made us lose. I know I’m a game nerd. I can’t lie about that.
Hot asss daaayysss
These few days have been hellllla hot, reminds me of those great ol memories in Detroit and New York. It was all like a dream. So much fun out there with my C.O. team. I miss it. I wish we could have days like that again, but it seems everyone is sooooo busy. They’re all seniors now too, and then there’s the 4 college kids. Its always fun when we meet. i Look forward to it.
I think...
Breezing through my LIFE.: Cherish the one you... →
niggayu:
jennyizmeeh:
This photo was taken by me, when we were at the beach during our retreat. <3 your smile
Dear Raymen Justice,
Sept.21.2010
I enjoy every moment i had with you, every hugg you gave, and smile you laugh. You made me feel special. Your the highlight of my life. I gave you a strong hug yesterday…
He had a shitload of potential in him, why must he get his life taken...
RiP
Before i always thought, ” if you didn’t know the person….why would you care so much? Why would you be at the vigil if you didn’t know the person or barely associated with them? “
But now, after one too many losses in the past year, its different now.
Its not even about the fact if you know the person, its about the fact that a lot of our young men today are being...
It's just Tiffaneee: I wish I have gotten to know... →
tiffaneeesteez:
Now it’s too late. To be honest, you seem like a really chill person. I don’t know why I would ever not wanna talk to you. I wish you can come back and we could have started things off on a better note, but now due to this fucking world you’re gone.. forever. I wish I gotten to know what your…
omg…i know this guy….
Quick thought
I was walking to quicklys today and then i saw a homeless man. Sitting in the shade and scratching his legs with a box full of furits.
I think real quick…
What is it about life that the homeless pushes on so hard everyday to live for?
They have nothing, no family, no money, nada in this world, but something inside pushes them to live on, even if it means living poor and homeless forever.
My Hood boys
These are my boys from the hood. STRAIGHT GANGSTA. Im kidding, but they is hella hood though. I thought it was interesting to learn that my boys and another group of friends linked up to make music together. They even fixed up my boy’s house. That place was worse than my room. But i hear its hella nice now, with furniture and covers. Its sleepover doable and habitable now. I listened to...
Hard Times
I hope we can get through this struggle and find a way to keep things we’ve always had it. Seeing all the people work so hard and have fun has always kept me happy. All the hard work is always worth it at the end, even if its only for 3 minutes of spotlight. If it doesn’t happen, i still hope we find an alternative way to end the year strong. lets keep it going fam.
My weekend
Went to see my sick grandmother in the hospital back home in visalia, it was sad seeing her there, but she’s been getting better as my aunties tell me. Despite that situation, we still managed to have fun.
I got to chill with my uncles that i aint seen in months and to top it all off, my dad, my brother, my uncle and i played basketball together. It made me really happy to have my dad and...
Watchix33sydney:
So i suck at singing and playing the UKE but this is for my bffl(: and everybody else that i love and makes me smile! (i was looking at the lyrics cause i didnt want to mess up)
dang girl!! hella nice! future youtube star!!! do another one =D
What do i do?
I think about this everyday. Every minute, every hour, every second of the day. I’ve been in AYPAL and STP so long, it’s consumed my life, for the better. I’ve changed for the better. I chose this path and direction because i want to make shit better. Then something goes down. There’s a fight, there’s beef, someone gets stabbed or shot or robbed. Then everything in my...
chi power is fuel: slowly making it a habit →
cherrybombs:
i’ve been missing classes a lot lately. not because i woke up late or anything, only because i don’t feel like it.
no one is here to tell me to go, it’s self motivation i don’t have. my momma won’t know, my daddy won’t know, because they don’t really take attendance with these huge ass classes….
Better be keeping up with the work/study of the classes so you won’t fall...
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ix33sydney:
ifailatblogging:
ix33sydney:
i just thought of this but what if one day we both went to Sam’s house and i just took all his video games. I wonder what he would do. MU HAHAHAHA
you’d have to uninstall the games and stuff. Would be LULZ. I have his house keys if you ever decide to do it~
loljk
bruhh lets gooo! you’ll distract him and ill do all that shit!
that’s cold....
He comes up and looks at us and says...
” guys, i’m hurting….”. WE ask why you hurtin?
” because….”
He tells us all about it. At the age of 26, he still hurts. He’s afraid for his youth, one going to Afghan next month, and one in an abusive relationship. Even at his age, that gun in his closet is so close to being used, but he keeps his cool and composure for us. For US. For STP, for ME,...
iwafak
i wanted to post something but i forgot. fuck.
oh yeah.
I think about my past every now and then. It brings back such good memories but also the bad ones. I look at myself now and think back, “damn i was dumb”. I’ve dwelled in my past and lived in it for too long. I can’t live in what doesn’t exist anymore but in memory.
Also reminiscing about the goods back then...
